*Writing application essays* I didn't even realize I actually did a lot in the past three years... Thanks to me three years ago who decided to major in physics without quite knowing what she was launching myself into, because now I can say that I will choose it again, exactly because now I know what I'm getting myself into.
Help I’ve never been so convinced that 1984 is happening now, in the sense that giant powers around the world ostensibly act hostile against each other but furtively collaborate so as to maintain their own authoritarian regime. Definitely not trying to be a conspiracist there but really can’t shake this off my head.
@wzqtparor 沒錯,只希望大家不要忘記年初的幻滅、焦慮、心碎還有絕望。(以及喜歡你的username! 第一次在長毛象上發現看春物的朋友)
還是很感謝三年前決定要 double major數學的自己,還有人生至今遇到的兩位最好的數學老師。雖然我偶爾會非常self-congratulatory地把這個選擇看作是和在那之前12年的學習經歷裡對我脆弱的自尊挑戰最大的學科(甚至說是唯一真的構成了挑戰的學科也不過份)的第一次勇敢直視,今天的我最為感激的卻是它在周遭秩序分崩離析、個人前路晦暗不明的、滿溢著自我懷疑的當下能給我帶來的一絲平靜,這種平靜是連物理都給不了我的。或許是因為我潛意識裡早已將物理和我的自我認知緊密聯繫在了一起,做物理時我看見的不僅僅是物理,還有我自己的投射,因此想做到完全冷靜應對每一個挫折是有難度的。唯有做數學時才能關照且只關照著數學,即便感覺思路堵住也尚能深吸一口氣坦然接受再想辦法應對。上述囉嗦主要是想要說明,生活重心以外的維度某些時候真的能夠拯救你。
@Absenta_sunflower 其實蠻正常的欸,畢竟voa約等於美國政府喉舌,不算是普通媒體
staggering in the midst of chaos and uncertainty with you//posts in English/Chinese